₊˚⊹ ࿔ cyber doll's mind vomit.

[Vergilius]

rather than dangling old nudes of me

My eyes seek this nourishment.

 

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My eyes seek this nourishment.

 

[Frosty Fetus]

I've been trying to just face life as it is - I don't understand why I always look too far into things and other people but it's always been a bad habit of mine to over think and to calculate and analyze everything seeking patterns. I hate being as aware as I am, something that I believe was built into me by a number of people for better or for worse though I just try to accept that I'm always going to be on alert by everything. I just started listening to Nirvana more recently, Kurt Cobain has become an importance in my life in a way where I feel like I'm looking into a mirror when I read the book Journals. I was out for a walk during a point and I saw that there was an engraving of his name, birth and death date but it was dented in meaning it was there ever since the pavement was first placed - the odds perplex me. This was a pleasant example though with patterns there also comes the bad where I always feel more defensive lately, was this built into me? I want to find the best in other people, I have to believe that our worst moments don't make us monsters, I have to believe that about other people - maybe I miss the naivety of connecting so quickly with others. Though now I notice things that make me feel skittish, something I've been open about - but why?

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I don't know why I've been more of a bitch lately - maybe I subconsciously and momentarily got tired,
if I've seemed off the past few days especially with my spike in activity maybe it stems from how stagnant things have been,
then all of a sudden more ghosts come to frolic into my own garden.

I just want to be able to discuss topics of interest,
why do people always find pleasure in banter or toying with others..

maybe I understand to a degree.

Same. Overthinking and over analyzing stuff is a pain to deal with and I haven't found any way to deal with it. Its just there and there's nothing to do about it.

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I dont understand why women post nudes when a majority of the time they end up regretting it later on.

 

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Same. Overthinking and over analyzing stuff is a pain to deal with and I haven't found any way to deal with it. Its just there and there's nothing to do about it.

Isn't the human brain fun?

I dont understand why women post nudes when a majority of the time they end up regretting it later on.

I don't regret in the same way other women probably would - it's more of an irritation of other people's moral compass rather than regretting the act itself. Life is too short to regret something as miniscule as posting some tit photos to the internet, it's why I barely flinched when in the past my content got leaked here, it's not that big of a deal to me though I get saddened when people use this to tease or hang over my head,

it's my own fault,
but it also sucks that most of this content is well over a decade old but people like Kaine feel the need to injure me,
for some reason.

 

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[IKOL]

my ass stinks

That was a very informative and mindful information Keno, we thank you for it (no).

Im tired and depressed and I have the LATE SHIFT for work tomorrow. Somebody fucking kill me already.

the only thing I can offer you is paintbrush. Do with it whatever you feel like.

 

[IKOL]

My eyes seek this nourishment.

Oh hey no problem lad here look under the spoiler!

Spoiler: Nudes here

Nigga you have to be wiser than asking for such stuff here, sheesh...

I dont understand why women post nudes when a majority of the time they end up regretting it later on.

Attention seeking. Urge to be attractive to someone who would do a thing, preferably do that good and stay by her side. Or just general women moment of stupid. Take your pick, brother.

 

[Vergilius]

Oh hey no problem lad here look under the spoiler!

Spoiler: Nudes here

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Nigga you have to be wiser than asking for such stuff here, sheesh...

>asking to see a pretty woman's body le bad
sorry I'm too much of man who actually adores the female population unlike you and besides you only live once take a shot even it's 0%
I had a crush on this cute lass once short hair a bit taller than me absolutely my type and I never did anything.. I still regret it so of course I'm more eager to take a shot

 

[IKOL]

>asking to see a pretty woman's body le bad
sorry I'm too much of man who actually adores the female population unlike you and besides you only live once take a shot even it's 0%
I had a crush on this cute lass once short hair a bit taller than me absolutely my type and I never did anything.. I still regret it so of course I'm more eager to take a shot

the lack of ,'s in this message, shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiet...

 

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nothing I can say.

 

[coffee adict]

>asking to see a pretty woman's body le bad
sorry I'm too much of man who actually adores the female population unlike you and besides you only live once take a shot even it's 0%
I had a crush on this cute lass once short hair a bit taller than me absolutely my type and I never did anything.. I still regret it so of course I'm more eager to take a shot

Lil bro thinks he's getting his goonfuel tonight

 

[Faux90sKid]

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@Vergilius How do you jack off? I prefer a slow start on the toilet with a women on top of me in my imagination. Perhaps even a fantasy character since sometimes real women get boring for me. Have you jacked off to point you feel as if your soul as left your body? I have weird turn ons but my favorite is when a white trash women is upset with me on the internet so I resort to jacking off violently.

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[Vergilius]

the lack of ,'s in this message, shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiet...

grammerpolice'cord woke up

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nothing I can say.

I mean there's a lot read the dictionary there's a lot of words in the english alphabet

Lil bro thinks he's getting his goonfuel tonight

do or die nigga either I die here and get permabanned(which I want) or I rizz up the huzz and kill this site too

 

[IKOL]

grammerpolice'cord woke up

SIEG!

 

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[Frosty Fetus]

Attention seeking. Urge to be attractive to someone who would do a thing, preferably do that good and stay by her side. Or just general women moment of stupid. Take your pick, brother

I agree with just about all of this. I dont know why ive been thinking about this kinda stuff lately.

Theirs a multitude of reasons as to why people do this kinda stuff. From money to mental health issues.

I've come to the realization that attention is a corrupting force, a kind of Eye of Sauron. Attention in a way gives people influence and thus power. People get addicted to the attention and all the things that come with it from dopamine, influence, and money. These effects are especially intense in introverts as they arent accustomed to attention

 

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I agree with just about all of this. I dont know why ive been thinking about this kinda stuff lately.

Theirs a multitude of reasons as to why people do this kinda stuff. From money to mental health issues.

I've come to the realization that attention is a corrupting force, a kind of Eye of Sauron. Attention in a way gives people influence and thus power. People get addicted to the attention and all the things that come with it from dopamine, influence, and money. These effects are especially intense in introverts as they arent accustomed to attention

 

[Frosty Fetus]

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What?

Anyways onto other topics. For the past couple of weeks ive been going through this weird status of I dunno "conscious lucid dreaming" or "psuedo-sleeping".

 

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What?

it's nothing.

For the past couple of weeks ive been going through this weird status of I dunno "conscious lucid dreaming" or "psuedo-sleeping".

Conscious lucid dreaming - wouldn't that just be lucid dreaming? You don't need to add conscious in front of it since that's what the lucid part implies. Pseudo-sleeping, I think is when you've gotten more sleep than you believe - you'd sleep for nine hours and wake up thinking you only slept for two hours, has happened to me quite often. What kind of lucid dreams are you having, if you can recall?

I've gone into detail about the nature of my dreams on many occasions where before liminal spaces and weird/dream core became an overused aesthetic amongst most of the younger generation currently using the internet I've almost always had dreams with these atmospheres and themes since I was very young, and they've always felt comfortable but tantalizing. I was just watching a video about how those who live a lot of their time within these dream spaces can become trapped, choosing to sleep and experience these spaces rather than face reality - something that I'm guilty of and it could be part of the reason my health is very poor as I'll sometimes sleep up to fifteen hours at a time, often because I want to continue dreaming when I wake up and will allow myself to fall back into an unconscious state just to be able to explore more of these areas, lucid or not though I lucid dream very frequently.

This image unsettled me because it's almost an exact visual replication of a dream I had a long time ago where I believe I was in a hospital, but when I turned a corner and got inside of an elevator there was a face that was unrealistically large smiling through the cracks of the elevator just as it closed before the dream slowly melted into black, and I woke up - but it was so vivid that I have it written down still in a dream diary I record my dreams in once I wake up.

Dreams remain very interesting spaces to me,
I don't understand how they can exist or rather how we can exist while being aware that our physical bodies are outside of ourselves asleep in a bed - that's a feeling that's always so otherworldly to me once I become aware inside of a dream,
it's always my first instinctive thought before I go on to explore my dream surroundings.

I would love to hear about other's dreams.