Bear Hammer's blog

[Bear Hammer]

Honestly, my reputation here and on KF is getting so bad that I think I might just have to leave this place, which I really would not like to do since this is the only place I can talk to people other than my family. But it seems like no matter how many times I apologize, change my behavior, try to show I 'changed' and try to make friends it seems like I only just cause people to dislike me more. Which is pretty unfortunate because I actually think a lot of people on kf and here were cool and I wanted to be on friendly terms with them.

Like it really sucks because I really wanted to be liked too. :/

Honestly I am starting to think just asking Ken to make my account inactive and delete the burner email I made for this account, and then trying to forget about this place seems like the most sane thing to do. Because almost every interaction I have on here or KF is negative even when I try to make it not.

 

[Bear Hammer]

I think apart of the main reason I am disliked to just because I speak my mind too much, I can't help it.

If I think someone is acting like a faggot, I will always tell them they are acting like a faggot. Even if it isn't true as long as I think it I will just tell people if they are doing something I think is cringe or I dislike.

 

[Bear Hammer]

I honestly don't really think people really view me as a lolcow, I don't even think dead lion thinks I am.

I think I am just a person they are really mad at and they just want to try to humiliate me.

I am pretty sure people just clown on me because they think I am a really annoying person, not because of me doing anything prolifically lulzy, unlike someone like Tyler Kolbe.

 

[Bear Hammer]

Like if you read my thread on kf, it obviously was clearly rushed, it's filled with different errors and incorrect information, and had so many spelling mistakes that Sara had to edit his thread for him to fix it.

He clearly just quickly made a thread about me simply because he wanted one to just exist, not because he is genuinely interested in having discussions about me. I doubt he will even finish it, I don't see him ever caring enough about me to do extensive research on me and write essays about me. Especially since there really isn't much to talk about when it comes to my time on KF or on here.