Cowsphere - Garden Variety ₊˚⊹ ࿔ cyber doll's mind vomit.

[Frosty Fetus]

Im tired and depressed and I have the LATE SHIFT for work tomorrow. Somebody fucking kill me already.

 

[Frosty Fetus]

too busy fidgeting

Later?

 

[Gore ChanGore Chan is verified member.]

I've been trying to just face life as it is - I don't understand why I always look too far into things and other people but it's always been a bad habit of mine to over think and to calculate and analyze everything seeking patterns. I hate being as aware as I am, something that I believe was built into me by a number of people for better or for worse though I just try to accept that I'm always going to be on alert by everything. I just started listening to Nirvana more recently, Kurt Cobain has become an importance in my life in a way where I feel like I'm looking into a mirror when I read the book Journals. I was out for a walk during a point and I saw that there was an engraving of his name, birth and death date but it was dented in meaning it was there ever since the pavement was first placed - the odds perplex me. This was a pleasant example though with patterns there also comes the bad where I always feel more defensive lately, was this built into me? I want to find the best in other people, I have to believe that our worst moments don't make us monsters, I have to believe that about other people - maybe I miss the naivety of connecting so quickly with others. Though now I notice things that make me feel skittish, something I've been open about - but why?

I don't know why I've been more of a bitch lately - maybe I subconsciously and momentarily got tired,
if I've seemed off the past few days especially with my spike in activity maybe it stems from how stagnant things have been,
then all of a sudden more ghosts come to frolic into my own garden.

I just want to be able to discuss topics of interest,
why do people always find pleasure in banter or toying with others..

maybe I understand to a degree.

 

[Dr. Nate]

too busy fidgeting

Nigger’s stimming

 

[Gore ChanGore Chan is verified member.]

Nigger’s stimming

what's that?

@VVV just had me nervous and shy..

 

[VVV]

Nigger’s stimming

Play some good music, if you can. Let’s hope you at least learned your lesson about raping your “boyfriend” for everyone to hear.

 

[Faux90sKid]

Someone blow the rape whistle