Wow so Null is a hypocrite with suppressed homosexuality and a hate boner for all things Japanese because he wasn’t accepted by their culture or whatever.
My inference is Null’s attempt at learning Japanese was watching anime and going to a sushi restaurant and getting laughed at because he couldn’t say anything correctly. Nowhere does he mention getting a teacher, going to a class, talking to actual Japanese people, or visiting the country. It was some idea in his head that became too hard and he decided he needed to hate it so it didn’t remind him that he’s actually a failure who can’t learn a second language.
My inference is Null’s attempt at learning Japanese was watching anime and going to a sushi restaurant and getting laughed at because he couldn’t say anything correctly. Nowhere does he mention getting a teacher, going to a class, talking to actual Japanese people, or visiting the country. It was some idea in his head that became too hard and he decided he needed to hate it so it didn’t remind him that he’s actually a failure who can’t learn a second language.