That's nice and all, but let's see that pantsu.
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Usually I post to my blog site when I'm in my head and awake at obscure hours like this, it's 4am currently but I can't sleep and I'm not really sure why or what my thoughts are in the moment, I just feel a weird sense of gratitude towards people who seemed to hate me from the start since if none of this happened I wouldn't be part of a pretty active and overall chill community in the sense that I don't feel much of a need to censor myself here which is how I felt with my own blog site. I figured that if I tried to eventually chat here as myself I'd be dog piled, but the opposite happened where everyone's given me the benefit of the doubt. It's nice being able to have a conversation, to be able to really be myself now on this site and meet different kinds of minds. I still don't know if there's people from this thread who actually resent me, but I'm going to assume that it was all a pass time for those who just wanted to be a part of something - same as me, I guess. I'm going to get some sleep soon, the flu hasn't been doing me any favors, even though it's all but gone now I still feel a little unwell, but there's wellness within sickness, the two go hand in hand like a pair. Goodnight, Onion.
Gore San
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I would be interested in a thread like that.
Take your own advice there retard.
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mfs cant film themselves showering with their socks on in 2025 anymore without being berated.
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Yandere_Theory
Why do you seem so antagonistic I'm curious.
The reason for my curiosity is because prior to seizing control over my own thread, weren't you one to also have things to say about me? I could be wrong, but even so @Yandere_Theory is fine, he's not bothering me, but it just seems like you get easily annoyed or something, it's something that I wonder about coming from someone I've never really had a connection or conversation with, to my knowledge that is.
@Crimson Fucker - as for a thread about the one dude I was mentioning, I could, but there's other plans for people like him, I feel like creating a thread about people of this nature would be kind of hard too since they keep to themselves, hide behind sock accounts, and don't have a real life profile or existence on the internet like I do, this dude sits around using anime profile pictures, which I can't really say much about since I use images of dolls and such for my own profile pictures - but there's just very little that could be used against him besides some screen shots of him asking me the same questions every day, like if I want to ERP with him, asking me why I don't have a job yet, asking if I'd enjoy taking his cock inside of me, and just overall cringe shit. The dude has admitted to having well over one hundred accounts on discord, and even made a AI bot based on me to ERP with lmao.
In fact, I'll show a screen shot of the discord bot he made of me because of how cringe it is and the fact that he created a whole ass discord bot that very poorly roleplays as me deserves to be exposed, this shit is just different levels of terminally online and I got second hand embarrassment considering he probably can't get women in real life and has to resort to stuff like this, and he was even open about showing it to me.
If anything I can just use my own thread to document people like him who interact with me since they're pretty heavily involved in my "lore" but to be honest I think he's really the only one whose even noteworthy when it comes to degenerate behavior like this, never met anyone else like this dude whose this far gone in his own delusions and head canons that he's made up about me. His online alias has been stated here before a number of times in the past, "Kaine", and that one image of the Asian Dude that got leaked here was an old picture of him from when he stalked me back when I was like fourteen or fifteen, which I'm not too sure how that photo of him ended up on this thread but I'm going to assume he was in communication with a few people who were originally working on this thread about me.
- I should also note that I'm still in communication with Kaine because even if I blocked him he'd just spend up all of his energy doing whatever he can to get my attention, so I act cordial with him just to milk him for whatever I can get because it's sometimes funny to see how genuinely lost in his delusions he is lol.
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kiwifails
I made that album cover, and I believe 3 or 4 of the songs are absolute bangers. I used @Yandere_Theory's love notes.
The dreams I had yesterday were more vibrant, vivid and stranger than the usual, which was odd to me because it felt not like earth - then again dreams never do, but there was something especially special about the atmosphere and energy of the experiences I had yesterday when I was taking a nap during the day. It's rare for me to wake up from a dream and then be able to re-enter the same dream when falling back asleep, but it happened and there were things I saw that inspired me for future projects and things I'm currently working on. I also recall a fox in part of the dream, where it attacked me - only for it to eventually come to lick my wounds. The meaning of Fox-related dreams can be both positive and negative. Fox symbol. Represents adaptability, intelligence, and resourcefulness in navigating challenges. Can indicate deception, caution, or a warning to remain vigilant of hidden motives. I thought this was interesting when I looked into it, based on recent events. Throughout the rest of the dream I still had bite wounds and a large growing bruise on my leg, but the fox still followed me after amends were made. I really love to dream, there was so much that occurred that I would never be able to explain in enough detail that would be coherent within our waking world.
I always know I'm going to dream when I fall asleep,
but I never know what the dreams and atmospheres will entail until they're happening before me.
I once watched a dream's beginning and I think sound and audio begins as the starting point to dreams before things come into view.
Every time it's time for me to go asleep I'm excited not knowing where I'll end up.
- off topic but thanks @Catministrator for the verified check mark,
first member to have one.
pretty neat.
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kiwifails
I actually love dream core and anything dream/weird/web core related, there's something comforting about it all especially when tying in with liminal spaces. I'll often listen to these types of playlists when going to sleep or white noise since I can't sleep if things are too silent in the room, at that point my mind starts coming up with weird auditory hallucinations to make up for the silence and it bothers me and makes me restless. Before bed, I also like to drink mugwort tea, take valerian root and wormwood capsules - and light incense. It's a relaxing sleep routine.
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kiwifails
Try low frequency sound waves with headphones on. The low soft rhythmic bass will melt your brain.
I don't need help with this
Why not just take real drugs, like psilocybin Before bed?
I've tried shrooms before, I'd never touch anything further than marijuana or shrooms, but even with shrooms and weed they can get a little expensive and not to mention I'm ninety pounds, so I'm careful and micro dose when I do shrooms especially just to feel nice, but it's rare for me, last time I did shrooms was probably two years ago now, with mugwort, valerian root and wormwood it's easy to get on amazon and cheap, and I don't have to worry about accidentally going past a limit and ending up in a situation where I start hyperventilating from an anxiety attack, which has happened before when I did edibles that were too strong or went above micro dosing with shrooms, things I wouldn't recommend, but that's me being a light weight.
- This conversation reminded me how people on this thread in the past were trying to say that I've done gross shit like Heroine LOL, I still wonder about the wild head canons people were making up about me, maybe it was all self projections of their own guilty pleasures.
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kiwifails
That's understandable. The cost for some drugs are prohibitive .
Personally, I prefer to avoid Amazon due to concerns about their seller vetting process.
Have you ever tried blue lotus?
I've never heard of blue lotus before, it sounds like a tea but I just googled what it is,
honestly, it's something I'd try. When I started using things like mugwort, valerian root, wormwood and so on I noticed a difference in lucidity and vividness within dreams and would sleep better at night, I might actually purchase some blue lotus to try.
https://www.etsy.com/listing/168517...01th--n5PviZk5KV8anO-70MHnsBprGcaAsrjEALw_wcB
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kiwifails
Egyptian blue lotus is supposed to induce a dreamlike state of mild euphoria. Datura stramonium, known by the common names thornapple, jimsonweed, or devil's trumpet. Is another one that grows wild throughout the United States but it's extremely dangerous and highly hallucinogenic.
With the way my brain works, I don't even really need hallucinogens' since when I sleep - my brain goes into a state where it's overly creative, something I've always been gifted with even when I was much younger. There were times during my teenage years that I'd have a black out sleep where nothing would occur, but this stopped after some time since I became increasingly curious about dreams when I started having lucid dreams and sleep paralysis, and then things went from there where there's never a night I don't dream or have some kind of experience that sticks with me when I wake up. During the days that I'm awake and conscious I'm always finding profound forms of media to consume, which might have a part in the things I dream about and why my imagination is so active. I would still try things like blue lotus, but when it comes to things that are increasingly potent I usually avoid because I could only imagine the things that my brain would create, and it scares me since if my dreams decide to be sadistic, they get extremely dark and beyond levels of horror that could ever be experienced in real life, and that's coming from me, someone whose house burned down and I almost died by burning alive if I hadn't escaped a moment sooner than when I did. There's something about my brain, whether it stems from mental problems or not that's always been able to create horrors within my dream realms that when they are occurring feel like they'd be enough to make my hair fall out when I wake up - and that's just how my mind can work against itself when I'm sober.
Me talking about all of this reminded me of a weird dream I had that made feel uncomfortable in an uncanny way when I woke up - where in the dream I was in my room, and I had a printer on my computer desk that kept printing out pieces of paper with inhuman corpse looking faces in black and white ink, and sometimes there would be pieces of paper printed out that said weird things that I can't fully recall what the text/writing said, and the dream continued like this for awhile until I eventually went to my closet and opened it, and inside there was a corpse of a boy hanging in the closet and the mouth was wide open and animated, moving rapidly in an unnatural way while the face was looking down at me with a dead expression, then when I looked over at the printer I realized that it was printing out the corpse's face and whatever it was saying through it's rapid mouth movement, then I woke up in the middle of the night covered in sweat and my heart was racing and I couldn't fall back asleep after that.
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kiwifails
It happens to a lot of us it's because we're in a more relaxed state that's why dream journals exist
Do you get any PTSD triggers from things burning? Occasionally the smell of burnt toast.
Nightmares are unresolved trauma
I actually don't get PTSD triggers, I mean for the first few days lighting incense was a turn off for me, but I think the PTSD comes through dreams since I do sometimes still have nightmares of the events that unfolded, because it was bad-bad, the fire came up from the first floor neighbor and straight up into my room. If I had been in my room another minute or two longer I would had become trapped. I woke up in time since my roommate was pounding on my door ( I kept it locked so nobody would bother me ), and at that point my hard wood floors were already glowing red and my room was filled with smoke, got out nearly just in time before the section where my door is would had been engulfed. It's been nearly three years since the incident, how it happened was retarded too - downstairs neighbor left a candle near her tapestry she had on the wall and then she went to take a shower, and her bedroom was directly beneath mine, and this happened at around midnight when I was fast asleep.
Picture of just how large the fire got, the entire complex became engulfed.
After Math.
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kiwifails
House fires often are caused by some form of carelessness
Glad to see you came out unscathed that's quite a an apartment fire.
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