I can get that feeling, I only really ever felt it around my parents, maybe not totally āIām gonna dieā but this sort of imminent feeling of danger or whatever Iām not poetic like youI'm sorry when I tell a story I try as hard as I can to keep my listener invested. But I also want it to be relatable. Everyone can relate to that oh my God I'm so scared I don't know how I'm going to do this, or that moment where you're frozen with fear. People don't realize that that's exactly what it was like in Iraq for me.
Thatās why I never got doing it, not that I donāt respect veterans of course, I just always stare at them like āYou- You wanted to go to war?ā. I guess after 9/11 it was a feeling of justice, I hear a lot of veterans immediately went to be deployed after that. Some didnāt even wait for the day to end.I always try to put things into the best context I can, so now you know what it feels like to be a soldier. You are frozen, you are scared, and no amount of training makes it any better it just takes over.
Iām not surprised at all honestly, not to toot my own vaginal horn, but a lot of girls specifically have gone through some sort of traumatic event in their life. Whether it be a rape or abuse or something, which sort of numbs them to other aggressors, sometimes even gunfire. At least for some women it does, sometimes even women it makes them even more fragile, or maybe it even does both. I dunno, trauma is weird.The scary part is some people... They still froze. They started screaming for their mom and shit while we were being shot at. You know who usually came through? The girls in our unit. Hell hath no fury like a woman under fire. I would call every woman who served in combat a guardian angel but they are better than that.