Technology Workaholic: "I got laid off at Google & it broke my heart because the company had become my life"

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I have only one thing to say about Google or anyone who has ever worked there:


I had been with Google for almost nine years when I was laid off on January 20. I spent eight of those years at YouTube, primarily working from the world headquarters in San Bruno, California.

Over those years, I worked in operations, partnerships, and marketing and was deeply invested in YouTube's culture. I saw the company grow in size, complexity, and significance.

I could never imagine leaving Google — especially YouTube
Both of my parents are from Mexico, and neither graduated high school. I was the first in my family to go to college, and I attended Cornell University before studying at Columbia Law School.

Although I had a successful career, with stints at Nike and McKinsey & Company, landing a job at Google felt like winning the lottery. The company culture felt special, one of a kind, and truly connected to a mission bigger than ourselves.

The perks were a fun talking point, but the founders' commitment to transparency with employees and making the impossible possible made Google a place to belong rather than simply a workplace. I felt lucky and proud to be a Googler.

I felt appreciated and valued by Google. Everything became tied to the company for me — my friendships, experiences, and values. The boundary between work and life was incredibly blurry, but I welcomed this. I was part of the nerds, the game changers, and the tech elite.

I felt cocooned in a protective shell from the outside world, where I had always felt not good enough. I went all in. I raised my hand for the hard jobs and did it with a smile.

I worked as a chief of staff to YouTube's head of global operations.

I also served as a general manager for YouTube Mexico during the COVID-19 pandemic.

I leaned into being a persistent and positive contributor to our Google community. I was repeatedly identified as "top talent" and given opportunities to grow as a leader.

This made the layoffs all the more devastating and shocking.

When the layoffs happened, I allowed myself a week of grieving time.

I felt rejected, ashamed, and like all my insecurities had been proven correct. Most painfully, I felt that everything I'd done hadn't mattered.

Do I belong here? Am I good enough? Am I taking up too much space? Who am I to ask for things? These feelings were always inside me, but I'd shoved them aside because Google had chosen me. Clearly, I mattered, because this important and powerful company said I did.

I knew this was something I needed to come to grips with.

Three days after being laid off, I recorded what would become the first episode of my podcast.

 

Slaughter

FUCK YOU GO OFF YOURSELF YOU KNAVE GODDAMN FORUM FAIRIE
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I'm convinced Google is an adult daycare cult because no other company has ex-employees that are so unable to adjust to the real world after being terminated or having to leave.
 
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