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Soyteen Liker's Blog

Shit realized i posted it in the wrong thread but you get me
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Yesterday I went to best buy to get a new gaming laptop after like 8 years for an early Christmas present because my old one was really big and cumbersome to carry out and was really slow, which made HOI4 take a gorillion years to load up which sucks cuz I wanted to learn to play it. I still haven't played it doe cuz I had another insomnia episode last night and couldn't really focus. But I do really like my laptop so far, it looks a lot nicer, the keyboard is a lot better to type with due to it being smaller, and Windows 11 seems alright so far. I ultimately decided against running a Linux distro because my cousin told me I had to decide which one to boot every time I opened it + most games have a problem with anticheat and Linux apparently. After that I got wingstop, half my order was garlic parmesan and the other was lemon pepper because I don't like spicy food.

Here are the specs to my computer, I would like to try rainbow six siege on it later, it seems like gaming will be more fun once I get off my meds and stabilize myself more. Hell, maybe Fortnite could be fun too. The reason I didn't get a desktop was because there's no space in my room for one. My vision is already sharper and brighter with lowering my meds and taking supplements that make lowering them smoother.
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I haven't been doing much of note lately besides drawing because I like to play with my phone's digital pen until it makes me want to draw characters I like. I also wrote something but I'm giving it time before posting it here because intuition.
The orange one is Mymy from Ongezellig and the one in the dress is Himeson (princess Cobson)
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I've been rather stressed lately because my mom has been home all day for the past few days and her presence makes me anxious so I've been drinking coffee and matcha and when that fails, I take benzos but I don't want to overdo these things in case i get addicted. I actually went to some stores with my dad today and dollar tree had these gaming headphones that were only 7 dollars and I was like "No way, that can't possibly be true, can it?" So I bought them and they were actually really good, better than the $60+ headphones I had before because the new ones are more comfy, better music quality, and better voice chat quality. I also got a journal with some Christian quotes to write down why I need to follow God as a quick-hand for those times when one of the entities in my head alters my memory and makes me forget.

I wrote an update to the document I wrote about the entities with some new sections and some editing to make it seem less like a jarring shitpost. I'm wondering if anyone has any thoughts on it because I wanted to see my general doctor to get a referral to a body-based healing treatment but the general doctor had no available appointments. I think I might know enough about my psyche at this point to heal without being completely bewildered, but there's still probably other shocking things hidden that might catch me off guard. Hence, why I write is to have a top-down (mental/thinking-based) approach to support what will be the bottom-up approach (physical/body-based).

I'd like to apologize for some of the more unsavory things I've said and done in the past. I can't quite undo them, but I don't think I should kill myself either. Hopefully I might be able to join OCIA later in September and eventually confess to a priest but my mom threatened to undo my progress with getting off my aripiprazole because she thinks I'm a schizophrenic because I keep having stress responses around her. She wants to put me back on 30mg but hopefully I can evade this.
 

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No I didn't, I broke up with him because I had a gigantic AAP attack and didn't want to bother him with that shit nor be the "uwu im a ftm dating a straight man but im a man too!" stereotype. I cut contact with him because I was advised that men don't like complex ex-relationship situations. I genuinely do not want to bother people with trans stuff anymore and I've been trying to heal and even write posts against transgenderism. It's just one of my fascinations but the thing about Minuteman is that I was still in the depths of being a misguided de-facto atheist. I had few morals back then. And I know your post is probably a joke but since people are going to take it seriously anyway just to fuck with me: I want to ask you this: Do you really think I mean to seriously hurt him for sadistic pleasure? Do you think I really want more autogynephiles when I have struggled immensely with my autoandrophilia? Do you really think I had some kind of problem with him that makes me want to hurt him? Do you sincerely think I want more trannies in women's spaces? Can I really not be forgiven for being misguided? It's not that I was some kind of weird dominatrix groomer, I've literally been at the verge of transitioning quite often myself - why wouldn't I have tried to guide him if I wanted to be guided myself?

I said a lot of disgusting things around him but even if nobody forgives me, I hope God will. I just wish I could apologize sincerely and make up for it.
 
No I didn't, I broke up with him because I had a gigantic AAP attack and didn't want to bother him with that shit nor be the "uwu im a ftm dating a straight man but im a man too!" stereotype. I cut contact with him because I was advised that men don't like complex ex-relationship situations. I genuinely do not want to bother people with trans stuff anymore and I've been trying to heal and even write posts against transgenderism. It's just one of my fascinations but the thing about Minuteman is that I was still in the depths of being a misguided de-facto atheist. I had few morals back then. And I know your post is probably a joke but since people are going to take it seriously anyway just to fuck with me: I want to ask you this: Do you really think I mean to seriously hurt him for sadistic pleasure? Do you think I really want more autogynephiles when I have struggled immensely with my autoandrophilia? Do you really think I had some kind of problem with him that makes me want to hurt him? Do you sincerely think I want more trannies in women's spaces? Can I really not be forgiven for being misguided? It's not that I was some kind of weird dominatrix groomer, I've literally been at the verge of transitioning quite often myself - why wouldn't I have tried to guide him if I wanted to be guided myself?

I said a lot of disgusting things around him but even if nobody forgives me, I hope God will. I just wish I could apologize sincerely and make up for it.
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ex 'teens say this but the sharty is kinda becoming mainstream and its hard to avoid it after its recent events from last year.
I will say it is, I’m seeing sharty memes more often on Twitter. What I meant though was more so that chudchud shouldn’t straight up go to the site, or should avoid associating with figureheads. I get that she cant go her whole life never seeing a Cobson again
 
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