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I want to stay out of whatever has been occurring since I find no productivity in arguments especially since I want to remain friends with all included parties so I won't really say much about the above conversation besides having read everything and being unsure of what I could even say or do, but I assume all is okay now, at least I hope so since it's more fun when everybody is getting along and not splitting apart since this is already a small but tight knit community, so I hope everyone is okay and doing well.
View attachment 89516 I'm not really too sure what to say, so I won't say anything at all but will instead update everyone on what I've been up to.
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I'm not sure why but I've started to grow fond of flowers and plant life, I've never had a green thumb until now but recently I've been collecting and growing different types of flowers and plants, which include vegetation for meals I prepare. I love cooking, and now having become a phytophile it opens up possibilities for future recipes with being able to grow my own ingredients, though I also love flowers - especially my roses and lilies.
Besides my newfound interest in plant life, things have been the same,
the same stagnant emotions, especially when it comes to not knowing where to really go from here.
One day at a time, I suppose?
I feel like I never really have much to discuss, besides the same repetitive discussions about this and that.
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I've been continuing to have tea before bed, mugwort tea usually though I found a tea blend that has mugwort, peppermint, as well as raspberry leaves which is a pleasant blend for lucidity as well as sleep in general. Before bed, I also take magnesium, valerian root, wormwood, melatonin, and do a proper skin routine with skin care products since it's important to take care of the self, but maybe I go too extreme with the routine I've adjusted myself to. Lately my dreams have been much more vivid and I can typically stay within a lucid dream a lot longer than I was able to in the past, sometimes feeling as though a few hours pass while I'm in the unconscious state. Dreams are a topic I could discuss for hours, as I just don't understand how it's possible that we can be inside of a dream, and realize it while in that moment of the dream and we are able to freely explore an open-world that doesn't exist besides within the depths of our own mind when we are asleep.
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