Not long ago, I got into some agrument with a few people who didn't like me. Nothing new. But in the middle of the back-and-forth, someone threw out this:It obviously wasn’t said has actual advice. It was probably meant to be an insult. But instead of brushing it off, I sat with it for a little bit. Then I just thought “you know what nigger, why not?”
I'm 19. No direction, no purpose, no friends, no gf anymore, too online. And somehow that offhand comment stuck with me more than anything else has lately.
It feels weird to say, but maybe this was always foreshadowed. Family mentioned the military in passing, influential people in my life happened to have served in the military. I always ignored it. Thought I was too retarded it or too different. But I’m starting to realize I don’t even really know who I am right now.
Then a funny thing, I remembered was the Kiwi Farms Semper Fi sticker. The site I wasted so much time on had a literal Marine Corps symbol stamped on it. Coincidence? lol probably. But maybe not.
So yeah, yesterday I have talked to a recruiter and am currently studying for my asvab. I picked the Marines because I thought it would change me the most. I need purpose. I need a life. Probably get killed by some muzzie in the desert but at least my life would be slightly more meaningful than it is now.
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