I don't know why I've felt manic for the past few days but I've been feeling more myself and less shut down - I wonder how many people actively watch this thread, those who would see that I'm doing well to end up reaching out to me, pretending they weren't always here watching in the first place. It's interesting how many different groups of people keep tabs on me but I've been considering working on possibly streaming again for fun - where anyone here would be invited as well since it would just be to hang out and enjoy media together - I've always loved the idea of working on my presence.