So if you don't know me, here's my intro. Since I don't do much, I guess I will focus on the way I think and my autoandrophile urges (romantic and/or sexual attraction to the idea of being a man.) Recently though, I got banned off of both soyjakblog.com and Kiwifarms for "grooming" but I don't think what I did counts as that. Kind of fucked up, but people are overplaying it and literally making up lies that I sadistically manipulated a 16 year old for my own pleasure. Sucks that kiwifarms believed it. I've been writing articles on SNCApedia in the mean time because it's really fun and tickles my autism in a certain way. I wrote an article on a namefag from soyblog called basil because he's definitely eccentric. I think I will also be more active on Xitter.
But about the autoandrophilia (AAP for short), I really got excited at the idea of being "him/it" - my subconscious male ideal because of complicated reasons. The tl;dr is that it's an ideal I created after my childhood self "died" somehow - the "man" I want to become is essentially a continuation of my childhood self. The "man" thought that I essentially needed to become someone else because I'd continue to perish if I remained the same. It's quite distressing at times, especially when I hallucinate "his" penis or "he" tells me to become a pooner (ftm), but I think I've managed well enough recently.
Apparently stuff like bread and fruit juice spike testosterone in women so that probably contributed a lot. I've cut them both out lately and now I feel more in-touch with my girliness. I was even going to shave my legs and maybe arms but I ate too much and don't want to get a cramp in the shower or whatver my parents told me would happen if I showered while eating too much. I hope to update this blog with more neat stuff soon, nice to see you guys around.
But about the autoandrophilia (AAP for short), I really got excited at the idea of being "him/it" - my subconscious male ideal because of complicated reasons. The tl;dr is that it's an ideal I created after my childhood self "died" somehow - the "man" I want to become is essentially a continuation of my childhood self. The "man" thought that I essentially needed to become someone else because I'd continue to perish if I remained the same. It's quite distressing at times, especially when I hallucinate "his" penis or "he" tells me to become a pooner (ftm), but I think I've managed well enough recently.
Apparently stuff like bread and fruit juice spike testosterone in women so that probably contributed a lot. I've cut them both out lately and now I feel more in-touch with my girliness. I was even going to shave my legs and maybe arms but I ate too much and don't want to get a cramp in the shower or whatver my parents told me would happen if I showered while eating too much. I hope to update this blog with more neat stuff soon, nice to see you guys around.
