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I was mopey on Halloween and on the 1st of November with additional paranoia until I drank coca cola. I think I've gotten a lot better at not having crashouts thankfully.

Interesting metaphor. I don't see myself as trans though, I see myself as an AAP searching for a cure. If people can't tell the difference, that's their problem. I don't think so. It's moreso a consequence of THESIS being sent "to the back of the bus" so to speak (I talk about what this means...

I'm still banned and they didn't touch my appeal but I don't see what the problem with it is. I can see this working for some people but I think my AAP is ultimately about male sexuality and anatomy which means doing guy stuff doesn't help at all. Not that having male sexuality or anatomy would...

Mom was getting desperate because I had agonizing headaches every day without fail and I was still rather agitated every day even with or without any of the psychiactric meds I take

Yeah apparently the tumors weren't solid enough to be detected on brain scans. Thanks, I hope I'll be alright.

Hi everyone! I've been in Cuba for the past two weeks because my mom wanted me to see a shaman for my general mental health and headaches. We stayed at my families house and it was nice seeing them again. My aunt was especially glad to see me. My dad couldn't come though because he still doesn't...

What? How does netflix redirect here?

So I wrote about 3.5k words or 9.5 pages in 14 pt font about the state of my psyche, particularly what the AAP/pooner entity is and wants to do with me. I think the more I bounce back ideas off of others and the more I understand, the more I can evade it taking over and eventually banish it for...

People realized their dysphoria wasn't because they were "women trapped in men's bodies" or "men trapped in women's bodies" but rather, their "deep-seated identity" was a pseudo-identification with the other sex due to childhood trauma, pornography addiction, and/or straight up just wanting...

Nah I think it/"he" is a demonic influence that intentionally conflates itself with THESIS. THESIS is kinda hard to summarize but she's like, my genetic/core/childhood self that sealed herself away to make room for ANTITHESIS and now controls my internal/subconscious processes while...

I got a new med called Nortryptaline and it's working well for my anxiety, even edited a story I had been working on an off since 2023

It's been alright I think, context tells me that you want to know how I've felt about being a woman in my life. I started off indifferent to it really, I never related to the type of woman/ftm to think it's unfair or degrading or shitty or whatever. When I first got brainwashed online to think...

Yeah but it's been less pressing lately. To blogpost for real now though, today my mom took me to see an old psychologist again because I've been tremoring from anxiety but apparently the psychologist passed away from a heart attack in January. We got an appointment for a different one on 9/11...

It isn't even necessarily asking for advice or help, I just want to bounce ideas off of people, really.

It's more than a gossip lolcow forum at this point, I don't really know where else I could go that isn't full of "Ummm that's transphobic and I'll ban you" people. I hate Discord but I'm addicted to it sadly.

Why not? Pretending I'm normal won't suddenly make me normal, I think I need to attack the problems at their origin.

Care to elaborate? My AAP hasn't really been anything to talk about lately but my mom might be getting me a new psychologist soon because I feel anxious every day and nothing helps.

Yeah there's furries, pokemon fans, object show fans, general autism and we can use the N word freely. Check it out, I'll even give you a referral code for fun https://soyjak.blog/?referrer=vr5rR

Seriously, I once described soyjak.blog as "A daycare for autistic teenagers" but there's lots of chuddy people who say slurs, I know a lot of us already use that site and it's really fun.

Today I was thinking of my relationship between my AAP/"him" and my actual kink/fetish (well it's technically a kink but I don't like the BDSM associations of the word kink and fetish is close enough so I will be using the term fetish from now on.) But basically, it's like the Lacanian...

Yeah I actually saw the docs yesterday and he straight up left in the middle of the appointment but we're gonna see a new one on Thursday. He asked me if I had PCOS and wanted to check my hormones but since he left we didn't have anyone to follow-up with. In other news, I got 'nished (banned)...

Nope but I think that would probably be more common with older people and/or severe cases. I have to shave my facial hair sometimes and another thing I might avoid now is height-boosting shoes because the feel-good AAP hit me when I wore them a few days ago. I don't think I should chase after...

Idk the exact condition but my testosterone is probably elevated, but no I'm not trans. I'm not a troon though.

It's okay I got banned but now I'm unbanned :like: No? What makes you think that? Anyway blog update: I see the doctors in a few days and I want to ask for testosterone blockers. I also got unbanned from soyjakblog.com because of ownership transfer.

Why did you lose it? I found out I got banned today 🥀

So if you don't know me, here's my intro. Since I don't do much, I guess I will focus on the way I think and my autoandrophile urges (romantic and/or sexual attraction to the idea of being a man.) Recently though, I got banned off of both soyjakblog.com and Kiwifarms for "grooming" but I don't...

Why would anyone think like this? I don't get it. If you have exes that means: You broke up with him because the relationship would fail. Hence, why value him still? He broke up with you. Why would you feel entitled to have a better boyfriend if it was your fault? And if it wasn't anything you...

It's very hot over the summer, there's lots of tall buildings but there's not much to do for people my age. Forgot about my nigga @creasman award. I avoided a full ban but I can't reset my email yet so I may be fucked over.

We might get new immigrants. To any shiwifriends seeing this, hello!

https://kiwifarms.st/threads/soyjak-party-the-sharty.145349/page-1417 Null has commit genocide against the shiwi users.

What will be the new requirements?

Sure why not? The only threads here that I've noticed get attention (at least from my time here) are the KF and Joshua Moon general, it's a bit boring.

new /soy/teen KF trvke 'Kiwifarmers are unfunny millennial faggots who copy off of the sharty. Their owner is a feminist pedophile. One of their most active threads is literally just us raisinposting. That's right, us raisinposting 24/7 STILL isn't as active as their stalking threads. They are...

Because there wasn't one before. Here, take this. Feel free to post cringe videos, pictures, online posts, et.c. Try to archive everything too, in case they get deleted. Try to avoid low effort or generic cringe.

I've seen some discussion about this on Reddit. Their reasoning is basically the slippery slope fallacy, "If we ban pedophiles for sexual degeneracy, Trump will eventually restrict our HRT/surgery for sexual degeneracy as well!"

Yeah us 'jak posters are heyokas dood, we post a 'jak and then analyze your talking style and images used to find you across the entire web to ~heal~ you. >picrel This stuff reminds me of the "dark empath vs. narcissist vs. sociopath" shit in pop-psytube that someone described as "tiktokers...

Did it work?

It's only mentally ill if you make a tulpa out of them.

Yeah the default is AIDS so I immediately changed it. I'm using soft gray right now.

Thanks friend! This place is kinda dead but it's cozy so far.

True, those are the worst by consequence but I don't think they're the most annoying per se

Forgot to actually make the text pastable award

You VVLL explain your answer! Also the polls can't fit every answer so I replaced soyak with "Two Pointing Soyjaks" because nobody picked it when I asked it on soyblog.

You're the type of nigger to put "born Jan 1st, 1900" for their birthday and have a snigger about it.

https://kiwifarms.st/threads/the-2025-users-gallery-of-shame.214341/ Null locked this for the reason "internal shitflinging is not allowed and you're all just lying for drama" What lies have you guys noticed (if any)? The soyblog stuff is all true so I took it at face value. And there's been...

Well obviously. The point is to pick between the bads.

For those that don't know: Agender: someone who claims they don't have a gender identity Bigender: someone who identifies as two genders Genderfluid: someone who claims to switch between genders Xenogender: someone who identifies their gender as a concept (such as catgender or airgender)...

Background: This guy was a Bachelorette Contestant that faked his own death for attention as you will see is a common pattern with him. On his twitter page, this is his pinned message. You may have noticed it's all different outfits which leads to the question: Why is he so obsessed? Is he a...

I had a theory that elites would use the same reasoning they push for gender identity and gender dysphoria for "disability identity" and body integrity identity disorder. It's a real disorder btw, they basically want to remove their limbs or otherwise become disabled despitr supposedly being...

I'm a namefag from soyjak.blog with over 3,500 posts there! Nice to meet you guys, I'm posting here because I wasn't sure where else to post. >this user is best known for: Being very interested in 'toons Voicing over various soyblog posts and threads with THE most ESL and incoherent speech...

>'cord server [insert discord in a mask holding up its nails gleefully 'jak here] I ❤️ getting my account striked and even permanently banned due to being in a server that they didn't like! Even if I didn't post a single message! Your best bet is using IRC imo