You are correct and I obviously recognize that would be the obvious smart thing to do and I have tried that.
But I am genuinely addicted to this place because it's really the only place I can really tolerate people and I have no where else like this in my life. Because even if most of the people here have a really low opinion of me, I do share a kind of wavelength with them that is very rare to find for me.
There is literally nothing else for me to do than to talk about myself on here.
I have no friends, no partner, and I hate my family. There is really not much else to do.
I tried talking to other people but there aren't really many autistic weirdos like me who could be doxed and not really give a shit, and are just generally just insane. It's extremely difficult to find people who are like me.
I tried just larping as a normalfag in real life but I hate it.
I really would like to make the smart choice and just stop visiting a website that obviously causes more trouble than it's worth, but I already know the loneliness I always get when I try to stop will just drag me back here.