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Nah I think it/"he" is a demonic influence that intentionally conflates itself with THESIS. THESIS is kinda hard to summarize but she's like, my genetic/core/childhood self that sealed herself away to make room for ANTITHESIS and now controls my internal/subconscious processes while...

I got a new med called Nortryptaline and it's working well for my anxiety, even edited a story I had been working on an off since 2023

It's been alright I think, context tells me that you want to know how I've felt about being a woman in my life. I started off indifferent to it really, I never related to the type of woman/ftm to think it's unfair or degrading or shitty or whatever. When I first got brainwashed online to think...

Yeah but it's been less pressing lately. To blogpost for real now though, today my mom took me to see an old psychologist again because I've been tremoring from anxiety but apparently the psychologist passed away from a heart attack in January. We got an appointment for a different one on 9/11...

It isn't even necessarily asking for advice or help, I just want to bounce ideas off of people, really.

It's more than a gossip lolcow forum at this point, I don't really know where else I could go that isn't full of "Ummm that's transphobic and I'll ban you" people. I hate Discord but I'm addicted to it sadly.

Why not? Pretending I'm normal won't suddenly make me normal, I think I need to attack the problems at their origin.

Care to elaborate? My AAP hasn't really been anything to talk about lately but my mom might be getting me a new psychologist soon because I feel anxious every day and nothing helps.

Yeah there's furries, pokemon fans, object show fans, general autism and we can use the N word freely. Check it out, I'll even give you a referral code for fun https://soyjak.blog/?referrer=vr5rR

Seriously, I once described soyjak.blog as "A daycare for autistic teenagers" but there's lots of chuddy people who say slurs, I know a lot of us already use that site and it's really fun.

Today I was thinking of my relationship between my AAP/"him" and my actual kink/fetish (well it's technically a kink but I don't like the BDSM associations of the word kink and fetish is close enough so I will be using the term fetish from now on.) But basically, it's like the Lacanian...

Yeah I actually saw the docs yesterday and he straight up left in the middle of the appointment but we're gonna see a new one on Thursday. He asked me if I had PCOS and wanted to check my hormones but since he left we didn't have anyone to follow-up with. In other news, I got 'nished (banned)...

Nope but I think that would probably be more common with older people and/or severe cases. I have to shave my facial hair sometimes and another thing I might avoid now is height-boosting shoes because the feel-good AAP hit me when I wore them a few days ago. I don't think I should chase after...

Idk the exact condition but my testosterone is probably elevated, but no I'm not trans. I'm not a troon though.

It's okay I got banned but now I'm unbanned :like: No? What makes you think that? Anyway blog update: I see the doctors in a few days and I want to ask for testosterone blockers. I also got unbanned from soyjakblog.com because of ownership transfer.