I don't know why but I've had the urge to read Goodnight Punpun again, probably one of my favorite mangas up there with The Flowers of Evil. Punpun is more of an experience than a manga to most people and it's a manga everyone should go into blind, it feels painfully realistic and it's just a depressing story that sticks with you after completion. I've been slowly working towards owning the entire physical collection for the manga but it'll take some time to complete since they're a bit expensive, and I couldn't afford to buy the entire collection all at once since I'm a broke cunt. I want to eventually cosplay as Aiko - I know I shouldn't romanticize Aiko and Punpun's "relationship" but there's something so enthralling and raw about their dynamic that feels similar to relationships I've been in myself.
http://oyasumipunpunmangafree.com/index.html
I don't know if anyone here would actually take my word and start up on Punpun, but I can't stress enough how good it is, if you can handle it.
I honestly wish I could forget the entire experience just to be able to read it again while in a state of naivety - but even knowing everything that occurs it would still be nice to re-read even if you've already finished it.
I'm not too sure why, but there was something about Aiko that reminded me of myself especially with her behaviors at a young age, and her home life and being able to understand where she's coming from. I always seek refuge in the most dangerous places, people who are absolutely no good for me but I can't help it maybe it's some kind of form of self harm but I just don't care and want to make other people feel okay even if it's at my expense. Is that bad? I can just handle a lot of shit since I'm accustomed to being the punching bag for most people but I don't know why I always allow it idk maybe it comes from self worth I mean with the types of things I post to my other platforms it's kind of obvious how little I care.
For those who probably won't read it if you just want to check out a summarized video -